I feel compelled to defend Morrissey against calling him a trog. (Sorry babe.) THe reason he's hesitant in interviews is because he's juggling two languages, English, what we all speak, and Lingua Verde, or The Language of the Birds, which he knows. So he stumbles himself as normal people ask him seemingly normal questions, but in the back of his mind he's hearing Verde, and when he answers, he has to be careful not to trip himself up and answer what he doesn't believe in Lingua Verde so that in the cosmos, his vision is not translated wrong. This language, what God speaks to us in frequently, though sometimes God just speaks frankly when he's fully with us and not multi-tasking, is why Morrissey is hesitant to go out. THe less people you have to encounter, the less you have to juggle. ANd for Morrissey, he's frequently juggling while the camera is rolling which is a lot of pressure, that's why his answers are so peculiar, it's because he's multi-tasking, trying to be all esperanto about it, talking Verde AND English all at once.
So this is footage from the first concert I went to, maybe the second, but I think it's the first. It was Halloween and there was an air of festivity, people were all dressed up and super touchy, it was like the whole place was on drugs. Kind of a wholesome Bacchanalian festival because Danny is being a sympathetic God on stage, he starts the song saying "I hope you don't have to experience this" or something along the lines. It turns out I did experience a VERY long breakdown. Soon after this Oingo Boingo disbanded and my involvement in working and learning and being "broken down" commenced.
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But it was around this time that Morrissey got frustrated because he knew that something was up, I imagine he saw it on his end, but he had no idea where to go or what to do because I was hidden from him. He wasn't sure if I was a girl or a boy, he didn't know if he was feeling gay or straight, as I was broken down, so was he and had to fight his own battles with being sued and feeling so alone and sequestered. But it was his undying love, this glimmer of hope that I saw, tht kept me continuing and him too, I suppose. So today he maintains, and it was true at the time of this concert, that Humpty didn't just fall off the wall, (I'm Humpty, I'm an egg because I'm a woman, note the moon) but that Humpty was PUSHED. The reason that Morrissey is stalked more by a devious God, (why he doesn't go out without close friends and support) is because the devious God wants something that Morrissey has, purity. I was pushed sometime in 1989. So constructive God took over and through the break down helped me to learn how to fight back, helped us to learn. But Morrissey was left dealing with not-so-constructive God, because in those initial stages there had to be a yin and a yang, and he got a lot of the shitty part. But today, we turn all the pain into gold. Still, it's a bittersweet process because it's believed it'll only work if we're not together, but it's not true. We CAN be together now, could've been for at least a year.