I was.
What happened was I’m insecure about how people feel about me/how I feel about myself and cynical and untrusting. If you know anything about my last major relationship, can you blame me for feeling this way? I was up for over 48 hours and exhausted, in a terrible mood from dealing with a lot of private shit (that included a death in the family and a medical problem) and I reacted in a negative way to something that shouldn’t have bothered me. I wasn’t able to properly explain myself because I was scatterbrained and overwhelmed and half hyperventilating so everything I said just made everything worse. I’m gutted and crushed but it is what it is. I can’t change anything now. I’ll live, but as they say, life is very long when you’re lonely...and I’m very lonely.