Nothingness

I feel like a ghost haunting this house.I can`t feel anything and no one can see me.It`s just a deep sense of nothingness and life does not feel worth living at the moment. I keep wondering why I do live. A while ago my mom told me when she found out when I was hurting myself she was so scared.She told me she was afraid I was going to kill myself.She told me to please never do that. That`s one of the reason`s I haven`t. I guess I don`t really want to die but living right now is really difficult. I make her worry enough I wouldn`t want to do that to my her. I`m just so exhausted.It`s an exhaustion that all the sleep and rest in the world won`t fix.I feel as if I am sinking deeper and deeper. I feel so alone in this.I`m tired I don`t know what to do anymore.I`m broken.

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Girlmostlikely
Tibby, I have read many of your blogs and only not responded because I couldn't find the right words that "would do". I don't know you but I believe you are as worthy and loveable as anyone else. Depression doesn't care how wonderful you are, it strikes all kinds of people. I have suffered myself. I know the pain of waking up and wishing you hadn't. I've at times struggled for something to look forward to, a light, and none showed itself to me. I've been on different meds, self medicated,etc. It gets better, then worse. I have been on a more even keel the last few years, but I never forget. I don't pretend to know your pain but I know a bit. I hope you find your way to getting better. I know you know you can't go on like this forever. Good luck.;)
 
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Girlmostlikely;bt2113 said:
Tibby, I have read many of your blogs and only not responded because I couldn't find the right words that "would do". I don't know you but I believe you are as worthy and loveable as anyone else. Depression doesn't care how wonderful you are, it strikes all kinds of people. I have suffered myself. I know the pain of waking up and wishing you hadn't. I've at times struggled for something to look forward to, a light, and none showed itself to me. I've been on different meds, self medicated,etc. It gets better, then worse. I have been on a more even keel the last few years, but I never forget. I don't pretend to know your pain but I know a bit. I hope you find your way to getting better. I know you know you can't go on like this forever. Good luck.;)
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Hi Girlmostlikely.

Thanks for reading my blog and responding.Also thank you for your really kind ,encouraging words.These things do make a difference to me.Thanks again. :)
 

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