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suzanne
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Re: Suzanne, let's be I-net buddies again!
> Hey, I'm older then you by 2 years, yet I'm not crying in my beer... Do
> you know why Andrew Cunnanan went to his wild rampage... (you know,
> Versace killer)... 'Cause in certain gay circles at San Diego 27+ is
> already over the hill... So after my recent 30th birthday I just said
> "f*** this, I'm going to enjoy myself unconditionally now on,
> receding hairline and all... As long as my boyfriend and my 3 best friends
> are with me" I remember when I was say 22, and I would see
> 30-something gay males and would think: "get a life, get a wife, you
> are too old to be gay and hang out, you are overaged, you are spoiling the
> scene etc..." Woman could be totally gorgeous at 40... Madonna,
> Suzanne Vega, Suzanne Sarandon etc... With gays, ageism is so awful,
> perhaps because we aethetically-oriented and often are paganistically
> cruel and without any morals and respect to older men, unlike Christian
> civilization (at some degree).
huh? men can get away with being old better than women can. maybe when you're 70 years old, people will then start laughing that you are getting hitched and having your first kid, but you see the hassle that Cher goes through. I've even heard more than one person wrinkle their nose at "how old" Madonna is.
>Also fear of AIDS plays to the hands of
> ageism among gays... Like, once some man well in his 40s or even over 50
> started to hit on me, in rather polite way, yet I'm thinking... x-cuse me,
> 50% of gays over 50 are HIV-positive (scary, but true)... Why do you dare
> to hit on me, grandpa, stick with you own age... Later I realized, that
> 19-year-old is thinking the same, when I'm myself (30-year-old past April)
> was trying to amuse myself with some light conversation with some UCSD
> students at 18+ venue... So it's coming back, my snotty attitudes at 22
> are haunting me at 30... And it is so scary, what will happen in 5
> years... 35... jees... in 10... 40... in Black ghettos people have a
> grandchildren at 35... So I just decided, f*** it... I will be happy just
> like I'm... I don't give a shit if some 19-y-old with running nose and
> mother milk on his lips would give me finger... BTW, my boyfriend is an
> year older than I'm, and I'm so happy with him, 'cause he is an adult and
> stabilizing influence for me... I would never ever date anybody under
> 30... actually, I hope to stay with my b-friend forever...
well, that's good, so what's your complaint?
what you're most likely saying is that you have a roving eye and yet, your age makes you compelled to feel grateful that someone will have you...
> Oh, truly, maybe we Mozfans have problems, not Mozza... He is happy as a
> clam living at LA enjoying sophisticated metropolis with all
> "kultur" and gay nitelife it could offer... Yeah, perhaps he is
> semi-retired... Truly, at Yuma he was at good mood, yet his performance
> was both happy, good-natured and... sloppy... Oregon newsmen got it
> right... Moz is touring half for his own amusement, half for some extra
> income... yet his income's bulk cometh from his Smiths legacy: sales
> share, songs copyrights and shit... So yeah, Moz is happy, yet his heart
> is not into making music anymore... 4 new songs were fine in a way of
> vintage Morrissey, so he may yet produce a decent album, he is just having
> different priorities now: happiness... of the middle age...?
*sigh*
you do realize that your conclusions are probably equally as baseless as mine, don't you?
> No, you don't... If you would hate peoples, you would not bother to write
> all those numerous messages... Cure from your blues: moving the hell outta
> TexaSS? Where? NYC, Tokio, Paris, LA, SF, Toronto... JUST CHANGE YOUR
> SCENE, DARLING!!! Get infected by "wunderlust", my dear... You
> are burying yourself in Austin alive, girl!!!
ok, i'll retract that statement and replace it with "face to face dealings with people annoy me"
there ya go. there is no middle ground with this one. and i can back this up with a 70 page long thesis starting from when i was a wee baby until present. I can detail times when i was about 4 years old running and hiding under my bed anytime anyone would come by that i didn't know. This is the exact same person now forced to interact with people or be a homeless hermit.
> My boyfriend tells me I'm immature from time t time... I love him, so I
> let him to be my mom, but luckily he is 98% of the time is cool...
> Well, well, well, did your script (book) was rejected... In your shoes,
> dah-ling, I would just sleep with both publisher and editor, provided they
> are both males of course!
uh, i don't have a script. or a manuscript.
the highlight is hoping to God Oprah puts you in her book of the month club.
besides, outside of this stuff and email, i haven't sat down to write a word in at least a couple of years. I feel no need to do it. I'm tired at the end of the day, have errands to run and the occasional person to see, and it doesn't earn enough money to warrant any attention. It ranks somewhere on my list of things to do i life right above "collect the entire Capodimonte collection from the home shopping network"
i went to this travel writing seminar hosted by this woman who had been writing travel articles since the first dinosaur hatched. i suppose she likes it, but the way she laid it all out, making a career of it sounded very reminiscent of continually beating yourself over the head and the pain maybe letting up on rare occasion. in the vast sea of books and magazines that exist today, its not worth my time or effort.
> Or you could marry a rich guy... Texas oilman, mafia guy, Japanese
> businessman, Enron ex-employee who promptly cashed out his stocks...
> Choice is yours... Also you could always rob a train, Buster Keaton
> silent-movies style... You are Texano, right?
Do you mean...Tejano? otherwise, i don't know what the hell that word is.
and tejano is a form of hispanic music derrived from Spain, but fused with German Polka music.
so, i suppose i still don't know what you're asking.
> Me too... My boyfriend provides me a decadent lifestyle, while I'm going
> to the beach every day... after shopping at Armani Exchange (Hate mail is
> welcome!)... Hey, just joshin with ya, folks...
*sigh* again.
> Hey, I'm older then you by 2 years, yet I'm not crying in my beer... Do
> you know why Andrew Cunnanan went to his wild rampage... (you know,
> Versace killer)... 'Cause in certain gay circles at San Diego 27+ is
> already over the hill... So after my recent 30th birthday I just said
> "f*** this, I'm going to enjoy myself unconditionally now on,
> receding hairline and all... As long as my boyfriend and my 3 best friends
> are with me" I remember when I was say 22, and I would see
> 30-something gay males and would think: "get a life, get a wife, you
> are too old to be gay and hang out, you are overaged, you are spoiling the
> scene etc..." Woman could be totally gorgeous at 40... Madonna,
> Suzanne Vega, Suzanne Sarandon etc... With gays, ageism is so awful,
> perhaps because we aethetically-oriented and often are paganistically
> cruel and without any morals and respect to older men, unlike Christian
> civilization (at some degree).
huh? men can get away with being old better than women can. maybe when you're 70 years old, people will then start laughing that you are getting hitched and having your first kid, but you see the hassle that Cher goes through. I've even heard more than one person wrinkle their nose at "how old" Madonna is.
>Also fear of AIDS plays to the hands of
> ageism among gays... Like, once some man well in his 40s or even over 50
> started to hit on me, in rather polite way, yet I'm thinking... x-cuse me,
> 50% of gays over 50 are HIV-positive (scary, but true)... Why do you dare
> to hit on me, grandpa, stick with you own age... Later I realized, that
> 19-year-old is thinking the same, when I'm myself (30-year-old past April)
> was trying to amuse myself with some light conversation with some UCSD
> students at 18+ venue... So it's coming back, my snotty attitudes at 22
> are haunting me at 30... And it is so scary, what will happen in 5
> years... 35... jees... in 10... 40... in Black ghettos people have a
> grandchildren at 35... So I just decided, f*** it... I will be happy just
> like I'm... I don't give a shit if some 19-y-old with running nose and
> mother milk on his lips would give me finger... BTW, my boyfriend is an
> year older than I'm, and I'm so happy with him, 'cause he is an adult and
> stabilizing influence for me... I would never ever date anybody under
> 30... actually, I hope to stay with my b-friend forever...
well, that's good, so what's your complaint?
what you're most likely saying is that you have a roving eye and yet, your age makes you compelled to feel grateful that someone will have you...
> Oh, truly, maybe we Mozfans have problems, not Mozza... He is happy as a
> clam living at LA enjoying sophisticated metropolis with all
> "kultur" and gay nitelife it could offer... Yeah, perhaps he is
> semi-retired... Truly, at Yuma he was at good mood, yet his performance
> was both happy, good-natured and... sloppy... Oregon newsmen got it
> right... Moz is touring half for his own amusement, half for some extra
> income... yet his income's bulk cometh from his Smiths legacy: sales
> share, songs copyrights and shit... So yeah, Moz is happy, yet his heart
> is not into making music anymore... 4 new songs were fine in a way of
> vintage Morrissey, so he may yet produce a decent album, he is just having
> different priorities now: happiness... of the middle age...?
*sigh*
you do realize that your conclusions are probably equally as baseless as mine, don't you?
> No, you don't... If you would hate peoples, you would not bother to write
> all those numerous messages... Cure from your blues: moving the hell outta
> TexaSS? Where? NYC, Tokio, Paris, LA, SF, Toronto... JUST CHANGE YOUR
> SCENE, DARLING!!! Get infected by "wunderlust", my dear... You
> are burying yourself in Austin alive, girl!!!
ok, i'll retract that statement and replace it with "face to face dealings with people annoy me"
there ya go. there is no middle ground with this one. and i can back this up with a 70 page long thesis starting from when i was a wee baby until present. I can detail times when i was about 4 years old running and hiding under my bed anytime anyone would come by that i didn't know. This is the exact same person now forced to interact with people or be a homeless hermit.
> My boyfriend tells me I'm immature from time t time... I love him, so I
> let him to be my mom, but luckily he is 98% of the time is cool...
> Well, well, well, did your script (book) was rejected... In your shoes,
> dah-ling, I would just sleep with both publisher and editor, provided they
> are both males of course!
uh, i don't have a script. or a manuscript.
the highlight is hoping to God Oprah puts you in her book of the month club.
besides, outside of this stuff and email, i haven't sat down to write a word in at least a couple of years. I feel no need to do it. I'm tired at the end of the day, have errands to run and the occasional person to see, and it doesn't earn enough money to warrant any attention. It ranks somewhere on my list of things to do i life right above "collect the entire Capodimonte collection from the home shopping network"
i went to this travel writing seminar hosted by this woman who had been writing travel articles since the first dinosaur hatched. i suppose she likes it, but the way she laid it all out, making a career of it sounded very reminiscent of continually beating yourself over the head and the pain maybe letting up on rare occasion. in the vast sea of books and magazines that exist today, its not worth my time or effort.
> Or you could marry a rich guy... Texas oilman, mafia guy, Japanese
> businessman, Enron ex-employee who promptly cashed out his stocks...
> Choice is yours... Also you could always rob a train, Buster Keaton
> silent-movies style... You are Texano, right?
Do you mean...Tejano? otherwise, i don't know what the hell that word is.
and tejano is a form of hispanic music derrived from Spain, but fused with German Polka music.
so, i suppose i still don't know what you're asking.
> Me too... My boyfriend provides me a decadent lifestyle, while I'm going
> to the beach every day... after shopping at Armani Exchange (Hate mail is
> welcome!)... Hey, just joshin with ya, folks...
*sigh* again.
