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I feel so sad.I`m afraid the tears will start spilling at any moment.I don`t want that to happen.I really hate to cry in front of other people.I guess it`s because crying feels like weakness to me.The doctor has adjusted my meds a bit.I really don`t know which is worse the medication making you feel so numb that you feel nothing or hurting so bad that you make yourself bleed to feel better.I`m not against meds,not at all.Some have helped but then they eventually stop working.Some of the side effects don`t help either.
I`m just so tired.I`m so tired of trying.I feel so bad all the time.I feel horrible when my little nieces and nephews ask what happened to your arm.What am I supposed to say?I don`t want to be a bad example.I really wonder why I was put on this earth.What do I contribute.I`m just a stupid,messed up,crazy person!!!!
I feel the blackness seeping back in and invading my soul.
I feel so sad.I`m afraid the tears will start spilling at any moment.I don`t want that to happen.I really hate to cry in front of other people.I guess it`s because crying feels like weakness to me.The doctor has adjusted my meds a bit.I really don`t know which is worse the medication making you feel so numb that you feel nothing or hurting so bad that you make yourself bleed to feel better.I`m not against meds,not at all.Some have helped but then they eventually stop working.Some of the side effects don`t help either.
I`m just so tired.I`m so tired of trying.I feel so bad all the time.I feel horrible when my little nieces and nephews ask what happened to your arm.What am I supposed to say?I don`t want to be a bad example.I really wonder why I was put on this earth.What do I contribute.I`m just a stupid,messed up,crazy person!!!!
I feel the blackness seeping back in and invading my soul.
