CrystalGeezer: Wow.
Your way of thinking ..baffling! I hope you are getting help. If not, please consider seeing someone & getting/increasing/changing meds. You do know that if you continue this way, you will be literally talking to yourself on here, you will have no one left on your side..you do realise this, right?
I love how you chose to ignore the bits concerning yourself. Could it be because everything I said rings true? Or are you sweeping it under the rug, like you tend to do with stuff like this?! You ignoring your issues will only cause yourself to implode & then explode. Have fun with that.
I can only imagine how many hours..you spend scouring these forums..& then when the 'opportunity' arises, you attack the poster with the 'goodies' you've found out about them. Those goodies are locked up in your vault, ready to go..just waiting for the right moment....
Why do you hate so much? I would like an honest answer, if that's okay with you? Of course it is your prerogative not to answer &/or ignore. I'm just trying to understand you. I don't know why I want to understand you, to be honest. I guess..in a way..I feel sorry for you..Everyone deserves happiness, & it saddens me that you're unhappy & that in turn is making other people unhappy & angry here. This shouldn't be what Solo is about.
Seems like you don't have anyone around you, that truly cares [either that, or they've given up, you push them away, or you hide your true self away from them..or..you just don't want to listen] & obviously you have a lot of issues that need to be resolved & dealt with. I don't know why your not taking steps to get better!
You only have 1 life. And to see someone waste it away daydreaming & fighting on an forum 24/7 is sad.
It's not gonna happen someday. Not to you, at least. And the sooner you realise that, the better. Go out, & live. Find yourself someone. It must be very frustrating & depressing to be on your own for so long..to be waiting for the day that Morrissey enters your life, the day that he falls in love with you.
I don't know why some enable you by saying your sign & symbolism posts are insightful, etc. [I have various qualifications & have studied Anthropology, Religions & The Occult for over 2 decades now, so am somewhat versed in those subjects].
They [your signs & symbolisms] are deeply worrisome. The fact that you correlate them to Morrissey & his works is a tad interesting, but far fetched.
For eg: I've had numerous scenarios & meetings with Morrissey; things that happen[ed] by chance or let's say fate, destiny -since there was no stalking involved, lol! With all the 'signs' I've had, one could say he & I are meant to be together! Others have said so, so maybe..
But. Do I believe that? Do I go & scrutinise his every word, his works, looking for signs that point to 'us'?
NO I do not.
I could if I wanted to, I suppose. ...Say I wanted to entertain that thought. If I looked, I'm positive that I could find signs & symbols pointing to Morrissey & I being together.
Hell, I could even find signs & symbols that point to me & celebrity X being together. He kept on shyly & sneakily looking at me through out the 4 gigs I went to. He pointed & sang to me. Wasnt my imagination because others saw it too.
Am I meant to be with Morrissey, CG?? After all..I did have those moments with Mozzer! Or am I meant to be with celeb X..or both. I can have both, right? Right?!
..It's the same thing with the blue rose signs..
CrystalGeezer; I know that you are a very lonely person with low self esteem. So why not try & build that esteem up? Why don't you go out in the real world, & make some genuine friends?? And if you say that you do indeed have genuine friends, then why don't they invite you places [or vice versa], why do you spend *all* your free time on here? I understand that this is your home & all. But..every single day? Your comments are in 99.9% of the threads I read!! There isn't a thread where I don't come across you! [not saying that you can't have your say, am just saying that you should have a life outside of these forums. A social life wouldn't go astray either]. I know it's easier said than done. 100000 miles begins with 1 step
Like I said in the previous post, you really really should take a step back & reassess your life & your mental state. You can lol all you want, or project it back on me, but it won't work. I have once again spent more time & energy on this comment than I intended to. I don't know how you & some others on here do it. You'll be glad to learn that this will be my last 'essay' to you Crystal. You are a middle aged woman, not a child; even though you can come across as one at times! I've voiced my concerns & you can do with that what you will. It is your life CG. You are living it, not me, not Morrissey.*I just hope that you see your errors, get help & stick to it.
-M
"..I know it's over...and it never really began...but in my heart..it was SO real..."
